Tengah Malam Sunyi (Part II)

“Oi! Rean! Dinner jom!”

“Aaaa jap, jap, aku tengah buat keje ni!”

“Ala, jom ah. Lagi setengah jam aku datang”

“Wei mangkuk! Aku tak mandi lagila!”

“Cepat pergi mandila sengal! Dah pukul 7:30 tak mandi lagi, anak dara apa kau ni”

“Wei diam ah! Banyak pulak cerita kau ek!”

Setiap hari. Setiap hari dia menghadap mesej yang sama dari teman baiknya. Membualkan kata-kata serupa. Pertanyaan yang sama, dengan jawapan yang sama, yang mungkin bedanya hanya sedikit. Kasi customize sikit, supaya tak boring. Ayat sama tiap malam: Jom dinner, makan dekat mana. Walaupun berbeza jantina, mungkin kerana sudah terlalu rapat, temannya itu dianggap seperti saudara sendiri. Macam adik-beradik. Biarlah orang nak kata mereka berpacaran. Keluar berdua sampai entah mana-mana. Sampai tengah malam baru pulang. Atau keluar tengah malam, pagi baru balik, mengukur kota Yogyakarta dengan skuter birunya. Tapi memang hakikatnya, dia adalah teman. Yang boleh dia kutuk, dan boleh kutuk dia balik.

Malam itu mereka keluar berdua lagi. Mencari makan malam yang enak, dan bervariasi sedikit dari rutin. Mau makan sedap. Dan murah. Dan itu memang gampang dicari di kota pelajar. Di tempat yang dipenuhi dengan mahasiswa dan mahasiswi dari serata Indonesia, makanan yang murah meriah harga mesra pelajar, mudah dicari. Cuma, harus tau mana yang tidak menyebabkan cirit-birit, mana yang ya.

Dia mencadangkan, ayam vetsin. Ayam goreng tepung, dihancurkan dan dicampur dengan cili padi. Pedas, enak, dan mantap. Masalahnya, mencari warungnya. Pertama kali, dan terakhir dia ke sana adalah bersama teman-teman sekelompok. Menaiki kereta David, walaupun hari siang terang, dia memang menghadapi masalah mengecam jalan. Inikan pula malam pekat gelap, kerana kurangnya lampu jalan. Antara ingat-ingat lupa, dia mengarahkan temannya ke warung Ayam Vetsin yang entah dimana itu…

Tengah malam sunyi

       Mataku mengantuk. Tapi masih lagi tegar menghadap komputer. Kehidupan kaki internet, memang begini. Siang tidur, malam berjaga. Macam burung hantu. Aku pun memang dah ada eyebags, nick irc aku pun Panda_Eyes. Ha, cocoklah tu. Lepas ni boleh upgrade jadi raccoon eyes. Eh, ke tak payah?

      Timeline Twitter makin rancak. Makin malam, makin laju pula dia bergerak. Malam ni, mereka berborak tentang banjir di KL. Memang Twitter ni sumber berita yang paling pantas, tak payah tunggu tv. Twitter, on. IRC, dengar Gufymike bercerita tentang Haskell di #scum-scans. Lepak di #lurk, ah, merepek #lurk. Kalau tak cerita tentang gaming, mereka akan merepek tentang DFC dan loli. Tak pun melayankan racism thinwhiteduke atau trolling Hildr.

     Aku melompat ke browsing. Walaupun aku ni taik internet, tapi aku jarang browsing berjam-jam. Buka satu website dan biarkan dia di browser berjam-jam selalulah. Website yang aku boleh layan lama-lama macam reddit, irz.de, cracked.com dan 4chan pun bukanlah website yang boleh masuk kategori safe for work. Ok, reddit memang safe for work, tapi subreddits yang aku suka lepak, kebanyakannya… maaf, tidak selamat untuk hidup.

     Jam berdetik, aku membazirkan masa lagi. Buku beratur di samping, menantikan untuk di baca. Air di jag, lebih separuh habis. Aku masih browsing, dengan alasan mencari bahan bacaan. Di luar, gelap gelita. Senyap sunyi pada jam 2. Dan di keheningan malam, aku menjadi teringat masa lalu.

i have no more words left to say

dear you

sorry for not being able to be the perfect girl you want me to be.
i'm tired of trying to make you happy.
you will never be happy.
not with me, not with anybody else.
you're too busy to think about yourself and your reputation to even think of someone other than you.
i'm sick of your lies, sick of your endless complaints.
nothing will ever be perfect in your eyes, except you.
maybe you should marry yourself.
it must turn you on every time you look at the mirror, doesn't it?

fuck you, biatch!

mysterious story from a scooter-rider.

I'm not so sure what happened today. it all started normally; i woke up, took a shower, and dressed for class. and as usual class went uneventfully, a few lectures and a couple of lab works. my classmates looked bored as they normally did, some of them even fell asleep during class. i think the only thing that's different today was the sky turned green.

funny i'm the only one noticed that. when i asked my friends, they all looked at me in a weird way. but then that always happened. not too unusual there. come to think about it, i only realized that the sky's turning green when i was riding my blue scooter home. there must be some connection with riding scooters and seeing green skies. however my other scooter-riding friends didn't even see it. hence earning me the weird stare that i mentioned earlier.

let me describe how green was the sky today. at first, it was blue. but then suddenly the color morphed. it was like looking at a vast ocean from the beach, where the nearest part to you is bright blue and as it goes further and further away from you the color changes from bright blue to something darker. and at the end of the horizon, it turns into emerald green. it was beautiful. breathtakingly so. it felt like i was riding my scooter across the ocean. exhilarating. and then the fun stopped. after 10 minutes of "riding across the ocean", the beautiful green-colored sky became murkier. darker and uglier the color turned, like somebody added black ink and mud into it. scarier. and my pleasant walk at the ocean turned into something out of a horror movie. or my worst nightmare. suddenly i'm treading at the deepest, darkest swamp forest, and the swamp was mocking me, calling me into it. which was not a good thing, i guess. swirled and swirled, a vortex appeared. from the darkest part of the sky, it grew bigger and bigger, sucking everything and anything around it.

everything came to a halt.

that's when i realised, i'm in the hospital, with multiple fractures, 32 stitches, and a disfigured face.
i swear, today did start normally for me.